Am i being selfish to myself i dunno and i dont think i want to care... I wanna give up on love or being love or watever it is that sums up to love... dont bother askin... although i dont think anyone would actually care so yea...
so i have been kept in the shadows for like the longest time ever which pretty put me in a very fucked up mood ok wait its more then that... damn why did u had to do those things u did? It makes me hate u that u did that but i cant... Fuck....things that are going on in my life right now definitely makes me even not want it... it just makes me even sad or even madder...
oh well on a lighter note i'm gonna have fun with my best mate tommorrow night so yea... i'm gonna dress up in my nice little dress put on some make up, paint my nails, wear my heels and dance the night off.. yea dress up therapy... i hope it will keep my mind off things....
*i need to puke.. i have this choke-like feeling in my throat...
*do u know the feelin of being helpless... u dont do u... so just leave me alone...
*i've havent been having enough sleep..
* i hate this feeling... argh....
*u always want wat u cant have... yes i highly agree...
